Blogging Heroes: Heart Failure Survivor
Just like many bloggers out there this is not the first blog that I have ever ran. Several years ago I became interested in the blogging world and decided to join in on the fun. It didn’t last longer than two months before I abandoned ship. What was I missing? I spent the past few days exploring the blogging community to find out and it turns out that I am not the only one with the issue. Many bloggers out there contemplate leaving their blogs because they don’t know what to write about. I considered it a possibility that this could be the case with me, so I sat back and asked myself: “why did I come back to blogging?”
Writing what I know and love
Several years ago when I started my first blog I started it because I wanted to share my knowledge with people regarding tech things. I also wanted my voice to be heard online and I wanted to do this by writing my opinion on current news and events on a personal blog.
What did I do wrong? I did write several dozen posts on many subjects from programming to web development and even including current events and I even shared my point of view. I didn’t know it then but today I believe that I let my blog die because I had zero interactions from a community. While I was visiting other blogger’s blogs and commenting on their posts I realized that this is what I could have been missing: a community. I guess I was writing about the correct subjects I just wasn’t interacting with other bloggers and expected everything to come my way. Not to mention that I was impatient and I was expecting people to come rushing through my network ports and into my comment boards.
Evolving my Purpose
Like I said previously, after starting my first blog several years ago I did not come back for several years until March, 2014. As you would probably expect during those years my writing style had changed and I had different priorities in what I wanted to write about.
My style had been evolving over the years because I had been writing my thoughts in my paper journal (and more recently on my DayOne apps). But apart from my change in writing styles, why did I decide to come back to blogging so suddenly?
Why I am back to blogging
At the end of December 2013 I was diagnosed with heart failure and I spent all of January and February 2014 in a hospital bed. As you can probably imagine I had a lot of free time to think; my mind was practically spinning like an overworked hard drive all day long.
During those months I spent a lot of time on my laptop and phone researching my condition to understand it. While researching I came across several old blogs and websites where people wrote their experiences going through what I was going through. Most of them were long inactive and I was not able to get in touch with any of them except for one person who is still active. The blog is called From The Bottom of my Lvad.
I left the hospital in March 2014 with an artificial heart and I immediately set up my blog. I wanted to share my experiences to the world as soon as I possibly could. Unfortunately after setting up the blog I realized that I had almost no energy left from the major open heart surgery. I waited a some time until I felt better only to realize that my body was healed but my mind was cluttered and not ready to share.
On October I received the call for the heart transplant. I am currently still recovering from it because I am less than a month post transplant, but I feel like my mind is almost ready to start sharing with the world: to make a difference in someone’s life like other bloggers and writers who shared their story helped me.
Major Blogging Goal
I feel like my major goal in the blogging world is to write my complete raw experience as a heart failure survivor after going through two open heart surgeries on the same year: enduring an artificial heart for almost 9 months and a full blown heart transplant at the age of 20. I am also going to make myself available in case someone finds my blog and wants to ask me questions regarding what they, or a family member, are going to go through while going through End-Stage heart failure.
It might take some time for my brain to give up most of it, but in the meantime I will also be writing about other interests to avoid making blogging a chore. I am not expecting to become a hero, but I believe that those bloggers and writers that published their experiences were true heroes in my time of grief.